Mood:deep in thought

lml

about 130 am, wednesday morning, 23 aug ,just after my and tara's 7months; she's away at choir camp till saturday. I miss her so much its hardly funny. she and maggie are really bored there too, apparently, and they have some really bad restrictions, inc. on using the bathroom and when you have to take a nap. dunno about all those, but id much rather have her at home here. thinking about her all the time; get voicemails a few times a day, talk to her at night before bed. a week is too long.
also got into one of those moods i have occasionally, sort of sad/depressed-awed-yearning-timeless-idk how to describe it ("It's been a long time..." dec 9); listening to music, browsing googleearth, Shout to the Lord comes on just as im going over bermuda, something hits me; a longing i guess is the closest word i can think of, but its alot more complex; some pulling for a free life, just to travel, see all these things, with someone by my side with it all; i dont know, really... it just keeps recurring to me, and it must mean something... i want to know more, be in deeper, but then im also terrified by that... we'll see in the future.

[current playlist excerpt]
.as long as you're mine (wicked)
.100 years (five for fighting)
.with arms wide open (creed)
.konstantine (something corporate)
.my immortal (evanescence)
.heaven (candlelight remix)(dj sammy)
.kaval sviri (ECGC performance)
.sweet prospect/lee (ECGC)
.El cielo canto alegria (ECGC)
.you belong to me (jason wade)
.shout to the Lord (darlene zschech)

just a cut, but i think the emotional heart of the list
happy 7 months, principessa

live long and prosper,
\V/